First Lessons

So life's not a fairy tale? So there is no Prince Charming? So you're no Snow White and all men are not the seven dwarfs? So you might not even be Shrek and Fiona? So there is no time for a perfect love story? So everyone isn't nice? So everyone you trust might not always be there for you? And everyone who trusts you might not always find you for themselves? So things fall apart? And you have to try to put it back even though it will never be the same? So you HAVE to move on? And whatever you're feeling right now may just eternally freeze in the moment? So some things can not be changed? And fate cannot be meddled with? So sometimes you just have to blindly walk ahead? So sometimes you have to risk it and live with possible regrets? So sometimes you have to risk it because that's what you want? So sometimes you have to fear and bawl in the dark when no one's looking? So sometimes it can be great and other times it can suck even harder? So bad things happen to good people? And evil men are stuck at war with an incredible fate? So you can be hell and heaven to one person, but you just have to live with the hell part? So there will be things are not going to permanent but we still strive to achieve perfection? So there's a Right and there's a Wrong, and then there are those feelings in the middle? So a constantly evolving life style is a monotonous routine but a stagnant one is even worse?

So there's definitely going to be failure? So a future is more about picking up the pebbles on the way than walking on a perfectly constructed road? So there's a 'Do Not' and a 'Not', and then there's a 'What do you want.'? So the people you communicate with are basically shaping you even if you don't give a rat's ass about them? So heart-breaks build you in a way nobody knows? And being able to conquer the fear of being hurt again is one of the most valiant acts you'll ever witness? So sometimes you burst out of the cocoon because you've been in it too long, regardless that you may go back into it again? So sometimes you hurt people consciously? So sometimes you want to fly. free from everything? So sometimes you realise what an emotional mess you are? So sometimes you'll want to be happy? You just won't know how. So sometimes you anticipate the unchangeable? So sometimes you want to get a hold of the intangible? So sometimes you want to die, or booze and sleep off forever. So sometimes you feel guilty, because you mean too much to someone? And sometimes you just don't mean enough. So sometimes you want to not let go, because as bad as it hurts, it hurts so damn good. So sometimes you have so much to say but then you just can't? So sometimes you'll want to erase the past, desperately? But want to keep the lessons you learned from them? So sometimes it's toxic as well as healing? So sometimes your question is your answer? So sometimes you crave for something you already have? So sometimes you look at those mean 'popular' kids and want to stand up? But you just don't. And when you look at them you realise they're popular only and only among themselves. So sometimes you are aware of every single throb and pulse in your anatomy? So sometimes you extend gratitude to God? So sometimes you get a reality check and it comes back more often, time and again? So sometimes you feel a great amount of scintillating animosity towards someone and you just don't know why you still carry it around? Because it's easy to let go off the past, what's difficult is the moving on part. 

So sometimes you just sigh, look at yourself in the mirror and rely on that unwavering faith, to wherever it may lead; a better place maybe.